Astral Samurai

Despite my defiance of getting such a low wage job I am now working at a deli doing deliveries. The mop ups, the loud late party goers, the low tippers, the cost of gas, faulty GPS Navigator and well in plain English it fucking sucks! Its keeping this family alive though, and I'm happy that I'm making my family happier. I have been closed lipped lately about the fights at home and the children because I do not want to hurt them in anyway, There have been a few nights where my wife punched and clawed me. That was the worst of those nights and it took all my temperance to stop from striking back. I had a set of words on the tip of my tongue, this sentence I am absolutely sure would have broke this family in two. It goes beyond hurt and I know she wouldn't be able to look at me the same ever again. When it happened though it was before we were married and I have rationalized it over and over. Thinking that it was not my fault in the least and that it was a random freak a...

What if you knew your fate and discovered that you had no choice in anything you did. Would you want to live that life? I like to think I have choices and in some sense I do. When going down the street I can take as much time as I want to decide which direction to go but nature hates a vacuum. I have found if you don't decide for yourself someone else will decide for you. In that sense it is impossible to be completely alone. As the writer Jean Paul Sartre said, "Hell is other people." If you knew your fate and knew what was coming would you try to change it or surrender to the inevitable? What if both were the same? I think about Time Travelling and I feel horribly guilty. If I went back in time to see my grandfather what could I say anyway?