Astral Samurai

 I was shot at nearly killed in my childhood & now I remember. I know those of my past tried to protect me. And did well in doing so. I miss being protected by my loved ones. I miss having a meal on the table. Cooking and Nannys pizza.

 So I tried to serve my best friend as best I could. Then I remember all the details of my metsuke. Its old now but seems so fresh like it was yesterday. Its easy to forget the battles we fight but when I was young I found my life to be slow, lonely then on one night everything changed. There were samurai's, tigers, & I remember so many warnings about what to do or what not to do but thats not how time works. Time is not a warning time is exactly what it should be a movement.\ Warnings do not mean that they will change that thing it will only ensure that they do happen. "Don't sell the house." Means we ended up selling the house. "Do this do that but dont do this or that."  Its all delaying the inevitable.

 I fear what's left of the future the future I dreamed was different. This hacker who has been a long term threat to me is assumed to be dead. Well I hope not so I can personally kill him myself. I've learned a lot about my practice its grown from being trained so well & relearning kata, reiho, & waza. But someone in my life corrupted it & asked me to perform something it nearly got me killed. On one night I asked the police themselves to commit me to seppuku. I believe they did infact perform the Seppuku. My head or what I thought was my head flew off my body. A hacker locked me out of my steam account funny isn't it the hacker leaves one last mark to try to hurt me. Well If thats the case no one should be gaming.  If I can't play the games I paid for then everyone should walk away from it too. I'll tell you why its a waste of time anyway. You'll be involved & involved and get somewhere then someone decides to hack into your machine and take wha...