November Blues
November started off with things returning to normal(ish). I couldn't do much more then edit photos and stay home. I was under the impression I was under good standing with a friend. That changed. After a desperate & honest email that was rooted in truths of my own. She told me off very colorfully. I am in a subtle panic, something major is about to change for me & I am not ready for it. She cut me off. In addition to that my brother is moving out, and subsequently cutting me off as well. Blaming me for his problems always. He doesn't want to contribute to anything. So don't contribute, fuck yourself & me over its fine, I won't be the one to feel the guilt though. He will. Because I was honest and truthful & I never hid my intentions like he does. I don't know what he wants, I doubt he truly knows what he wants. But his anger & bitterness are viral. Its infected my mind & for him to leave is probably a good th...