Astral Samurai

 My hacker has won  I am evicted and nearly penniless  Are you satisfied? You should be. You assassinated my character my life & any hope of normalcy. I have nothing now & that's how you win. Good luck.

 I was shot at nearly killed in my childhood & now I remember. I know those of my past tried to protect me. And did well in doing so. I miss being protected by my loved ones. I miss having a meal on the table. Cooking and Nannys pizza.

 So I tried to serve my best friend as best I could. Then I remember all the details of my metsuke. Its old now but seems so fresh like it was yesterday. Its easy to forget the battles we fight but when I was young I found my life to be slow, lonely then on one night everything changed. There were samurai's, tigers, & I remember so many warnings about what to do or what not to do but thats not how time works. Time is not a warning time is exactly what it should be a movement.\ Warnings do not mean that they will change that thing it will only ensure that they do happen. "Don't sell the house." Means we ended up selling the house. "Do this do that but dont do this or that."  Its all delaying the inevitable.

 I fear what's left of the future the future I dreamed was different. This hacker who has been a long term threat to me is assumed to be dead. Well I hope not so I can personally kill him myself. I've learned a lot about my practice its grown from being trained so well & relearning kata, reiho, & waza. But someone in my life corrupted it & asked me to perform something it nearly got me killed. On one night I asked the police themselves to commit me to seppuku. I believe they did infact perform the Seppuku. My head or what I thought was my head flew off my body. A hacker locked me out of my steam account funny isn't it the hacker leaves one last mark to try to hurt me. Well If thats the case no one should be gaming.  If I can't play the games I paid for then everyone should walk away from it too. I'll tell you why its a waste of time anyway. You'll be involved & involved and get somewhere then someone decides to hack into your machine and take wha...

Apparently Star Wars has strippers now.  May the force be with them! How about that time for hour tax cum baby? Anyway its been so busy. Insanely busy.  Misguided arrows of thought that lead to a return to things I left behind.  I'm pretty sure things are getting worse not better. I'm working still as a rideshare but its been a hard road to dedicate myself to it while trying to build a production company for the purposes of filming a short film I call Dreams. I'm running out of money, how this happened is complicated I don't even know entirely if I should be missing the amount of money I'm missing.  Things have become overwhelming again. Yes I don't have to worry about the threat of the guardianship now but there are other threats too, threats I obviously didn't see & now have some but not complete awareness of them.  Its leading me to believe that I need to take this blog down.  I don't really want to. I like having this blog to read back to myself ...

One thing I have been taught time & again is that there is no limit to human cruelty in this world. I suffered another though seemingly minor humiliation to anyone looking in on the outside.  I took it extremely personally that I was refused entry for a ticket I paid for a show I wanted to go to. Now I have no regrets here. I will fight the law now, & the law will lose eventually. It is pride that goes before a fall. But until I fall I stand proudly, defiantly, & will devastate this world now with knowledge.  It may take another ten years to prove my point it may take an additional 10 years from then to prove the other point. This United States of America is gone. It broke its own laws on 07/02/2010 & continues to break down because of that seemingly innocent privacy violation that I can't prove occurred. You'll have to ask Barack Obama about it & the CIA. And I am mad that no one from any agency has contacted me regarding my inquiries. It will be voted whe...