Astral Samurai

What can I say life has been moving at a snails pace but I am living happily in the dream world. Sometimes when I close my eyes just before sleeping I see things, impossible things that I almost cannot make sense out of. For the most part they seem like giants, demons, dragons, angels, moving and shaping. At least once I opened my eyes out of fear. Seeing these things can be scary to say the least.  Otherwise when sleeping I have spent a lot of time in my grandparents house. A house that still is in the families possession. I dreamed of my grandfather playing piano and singing it was wonderful. Though he is no longer alive I felt compelled to note this dream, it made me feel elated.  When I woke up around 4 pm I noted that neither my wife nor the kids were in the house. My wife is at work but the kids should be home. I am far too tired to stay awake long enough to make a call and see where they are. I feel bad but I know they're safe. 

Something strange is happening to me. My wife and I spend no time together at all. I barely see the kids now they spend their time with friends. I on the other hand have spent most of my time sleeping. It is hard for me to know when I am sleeping now, and when I am awake. Since both seem real and go hand in hand. For instance I have been having strange dreams about my neighbor. This has been on going, and the plot from the dream has been consistent. Recently however whether it was a dream or in fact reality. My neighbor had a package delivered to my house accidentally. I left it outside her house and left a note. At least I think this is what happened, then again it might have been a dream. I do not know why I am spending so much time sleeping, some account it for depression. But I feel there is a deeper meaning, perhaps a search from within for some kind of escape from my own stagnant life. Otherwise not much has changed as I go deeper and deeper into the Astral Plain, I spend les...

When I woke up this morning I recalled a dream that seemed so real. I stepped out of my grandmother's house here in California and the sky was crimson red I could see two suns one close the other further away. It was beautiful, and quite the opposite of another dream I used to have with the sun burning to ash.

I am now in California life is better here. Although my mother and grandmother are constantly yelling at each other mostly by my mother's provocation. My mother seems to need an enormous amount of attention and I get rather annoyed when she talks to me. Yes I love her but shes a psychjob. My grandmother and mother both have been cooking for me. I tried to make myself a cheese quesadilla and my mother insisted on doing it her way, while I know it has to be stuck in the oven not a toaster oven. The quesadilla came out burnt to a crisp so I tossed it out. I haven't had a drink since I got here, and I had a fever with a temperature of 101.3 for two days. I had a blood test so my first thought was that they used a dirty needle to get the blood. It could be anything though. The weather in Monterey is great, must be 60F or so outside. I also have a new watch on hold. Ahh I am tired now so I am going to rest.