A Slight Miscalculation

Only now do I realize my mistake six months ago...Something on TV provoked me to react. I did not see the consequences till after the event.

This miscalculation whether purposely created by those in secrecy or by my own stupidity has changed the past and my future. The error was my fault and now I understand its cause.

I am uncertain of my future now and feel a bit more powerless over the future.

Since I have realized the mistake now the future is not so concrete as I assumed it to be.

I wonder now how much time I will have before the end for me comes. As I am challenging time versus destiny.

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