Time

I often ask myself between being a writer, artist and creator in general will my life have purpose and meaning? If I am living a predestined life does my life have enough capacity to effect history and change.  I am alone, whether in the real world with my brother and father in this house or in other world as a married man.

I see that I am alone in this belief of predestination since it has only been proven to me by passing myself in an alternative timeline one in which I die. This is a death that I will have to prepare for eventually but I will do what I can to make a mark on this world though it might be forgotten in the near future.

Time is a subject of which I have a special interest in after all it was George Orwell who said, " "Who Controls the Past Now, Controls the Future, Who controls the Present Now, Controls the Past." 

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