Conflicts of Dreamery

I'm kinda writing this on the go without take a prolonged time to think it over.
Sometimes I have dreams that do on occasion become true.
They are paths an I often pursue them thinking of them as a sort of guided direction.
However I am unsure whether the different dreams I've been having lead to California.
Which has been planned meticulously and seems to be almost definite.
In the past there have been dreams pointing towards something happening here in New York.
The others though fewer show California.
Perhaps it is something I am missing in the puzzle.
Too much to think over on one night but I am hoping any possible events that might derail me will be delayed for an extended period of time.
The laws of physics may deny me this request but I am hoping that in the next 70 and some odd days my plan to make a more permanent move out to California is achieved.
Though I know by assurances of other dreams I will be back to New York at some point.
The question is when?
And in what state of mind?
Either way time will tell as it always does.

Namaste!

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