Game Over man, Game Over!
Instead of going on an extended rant about gaming I'll just get to the point.
I've stopped gaming altogether and to show my commitment to my work and loosing up my time I've discontinued internet service for the time being.
After all at $45 dollars a month that is a couple of gallons of gas or a credit card payment.
March ended up being a productive month not as much as I'd wanted it to be but just enough.
I am at the tail end of the guitar crafting book though the author's grammar and sentencing are suspect.
(How the publisher let simple errors get through I wonder?)
Though this book is a good starting point and gives a summarized idea of what to do and to expect I know experience is the best teacher anyway.
I'm still writing out the draft, slowly, however when typing it up I am hesitant. Two things I am aware of, one this book will have an audience but I am not sure I want an extended audience for this book. Its deeply personal and though fiction carries a rather large extraction from my own life experiences. Two it is missing something, the emotions are there, the characters are vividly personable, but there are other details that are lacking. It could be location, or the balance between the other characters, it could also be that I am deliberately avoiding important parts of my past to avoid coloring this book in a negative light.
There is that little voice within saying, You can't write that its wrong.
I don't want the book purely idolized as if it were great writing.
I also don't want it to be a flat unenjoyable text.
Like I've said earlier balance is important to the subject.
In the in-between I've been gardening everyday of the week here.
Whether something as basic as watering to the more heavy tasks like disassembling an entire tree trunk.
Its kept me busy and is a welcome distraction from the mundane.
Yoga as always keeps me grounded and energetic.
I have branched out into strength training, long hikes, and the occasional urban climb.
At the end of this month I may have overworked myself, lower back is sore, arms are sore, chest.
I suppose I could go to a drug store and buy some pain killers, or steroids.
But then I'd be violating my principles, besides I'd probably just end up like one of those jock douche bags that are a dime a dozen these days.
Two family birthday's this month, my grandmothers and my dad's.
My grandmother turned 84, I always tell her, "I'm 72 and you're 48 see the difference?"
Telling her that always gets a laugh and sometimes that is all we need from each other to stay sane.
My father turned 54 and he made another trip out to California at the beginning of the month.
A surprise to even me at the time, had I my own car I surely would have made the trip out to Palm Springs.
Instead I sent him a letter with a shamrock in it and a short happy birthday note.
Still keeping my eyes pealed for cars and at the beginning of next month a purchase is more than likely going to be made. On my way into town I noticed an older man stall out in his Oldsmobile. It made me glad that I've been patient about it, and I even say lucky to have the luxury of being able to pick and choose at this point.
I'd rather have to wait two weeks to find a reliable and dependable car then a heap of junk that won't make it out the drive way.
I also realized I don't like driving, its stressful, it can be overwhelming because you can't predict what the other drivers will do all the time.
Its a convenience and I asked myself well whats more important to me, a car or my health?
Obviously my health always takes precedence over anything material but by bus it would take me two hours to get to that spa I so enjoy. Seems like a karmic deal to me, is it equally balanced?
Maybe not but just about.
I also just realized on the positive side if I don't get a car then I can pay off the remainder of my credit card in full.
In the long run that can't be a bad thing and a car is always a financial responsibility at any point in time.
Either way it will be a vivid month full of activity, stress, failures, and a new guitar coming into birth.
-Astral Samurai
I've stopped gaming altogether and to show my commitment to my work and loosing up my time I've discontinued internet service for the time being.
After all at $45 dollars a month that is a couple of gallons of gas or a credit card payment.
March ended up being a productive month not as much as I'd wanted it to be but just enough.
I am at the tail end of the guitar crafting book though the author's grammar and sentencing are suspect.
(How the publisher let simple errors get through I wonder?)
Though this book is a good starting point and gives a summarized idea of what to do and to expect I know experience is the best teacher anyway.
Anyway I've bought most of the tools and parts I will need though I'm sure theres a bit more I will need before embarking on it.
I'm still writing out the draft, slowly, however when typing it up I am hesitant. Two things I am aware of, one this book will have an audience but I am not sure I want an extended audience for this book. Its deeply personal and though fiction carries a rather large extraction from my own life experiences. Two it is missing something, the emotions are there, the characters are vividly personable, but there are other details that are lacking. It could be location, or the balance between the other characters, it could also be that I am deliberately avoiding important parts of my past to avoid coloring this book in a negative light.
There is that little voice within saying, You can't write that its wrong.
I don't want the book purely idolized as if it were great writing.
I also don't want it to be a flat unenjoyable text.
Like I've said earlier balance is important to the subject.
In the in-between I've been gardening everyday of the week here.
Whether something as basic as watering to the more heavy tasks like disassembling an entire tree trunk.
Its kept me busy and is a welcome distraction from the mundane.
Yoga as always keeps me grounded and energetic.
I have branched out into strength training, long hikes, and the occasional urban climb.
At the end of this month I may have overworked myself, lower back is sore, arms are sore, chest.
I suppose I could go to a drug store and buy some pain killers, or steroids.
But then I'd be violating my principles, besides I'd probably just end up like one of those jock douche bags that are a dime a dozen these days.
Two family birthday's this month, my grandmothers and my dad's.
My grandmother turned 84, I always tell her, "I'm 72 and you're 48 see the difference?"
Telling her that always gets a laugh and sometimes that is all we need from each other to stay sane.
My father turned 54 and he made another trip out to California at the beginning of the month.
A surprise to even me at the time, had I my own car I surely would have made the trip out to Palm Springs.
Instead I sent him a letter with a shamrock in it and a short happy birthday note.
Still keeping my eyes pealed for cars and at the beginning of next month a purchase is more than likely going to be made. On my way into town I noticed an older man stall out in his Oldsmobile. It made me glad that I've been patient about it, and I even say lucky to have the luxury of being able to pick and choose at this point.
I'd rather have to wait two weeks to find a reliable and dependable car then a heap of junk that won't make it out the drive way.
I also realized I don't like driving, its stressful, it can be overwhelming because you can't predict what the other drivers will do all the time.
Its a convenience and I asked myself well whats more important to me, a car or my health?
Obviously my health always takes precedence over anything material but by bus it would take me two hours to get to that spa I so enjoy. Seems like a karmic deal to me, is it equally balanced?
Maybe not but just about.
I also just realized on the positive side if I don't get a car then I can pay off the remainder of my credit card in full.
In the long run that can't be a bad thing and a car is always a financial responsibility at any point in time.
Either way it will be a vivid month full of activity, stress, failures, and a new guitar coming into birth.
-Astral Samurai
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