Somewhere Inside

I left California last month rather abruptly I had no choice the damage was done.
It was either a brilliant mistake or a costly failure since I am now away from the shop and my tools.
Something really important happened on that plane it was like the part at the end of a movie and you get a behind the scenes take.
How'd they do that?
I managed to make a fool of myself twice in the same day after.
But it made me realize something very important about time travel.
The Time Traveler's free will.
The Time Traveler as an individual makes their own choices.
Its both scary and liberating because one person alone cannot be responsible for the actions of every time traveler.
I am still recovering from these quickly acquired intuitive experiences.
Nobody knows what they experience as a time traveler until they actually go through the experience.
I am in some way damning myself.
It hurts to know this stuff personally, emotionally.
I have to accept the things I cannot change.
I still am going over things in my mind reasoning it out listening to what only I can hear.
Hate to tell ya man your gonna get old one day so Yolo that shit.
Theres been a whole lot of emotional ups and downs, prayers, and yoga.
A captive heart is always the most honest.
Still there is fear, worry and uncertainty.
On the plus side someone bought one of my books.
First time in years and this gave me that writer's high, the motivation to finish a long overdue novel.  

As Always Keepin' it Square