A Cold Case
Winter came gently here and I expected the usual snow fall out in New York that never came.
The cold chill of the wind touched my skin and I could feel my body hair get longer.
I have that weird winter feeling from it being darker earlier in the day.
As far as accomplishments go I built a guitar but it isn't a perfect build in fact it looks sloppy.
Yeah it plays, it works but who leaves gaps on the ribs like that?
A pro wouldn't thats for sure I need a lot more experience building and especially repairing if I'm going to call myself a true Luthier.
Yoga has kept me grounded and fit but I'm still putting on weight despite actively practicing.
I need to branch out into strength training and cardio.
There were a lot of adventures and misadventures this year.
Some of those misadventures leave a really bad taste in the mouth down to the gut.
I'm still carrying thoughts of those misadventures with me.
Writing about it helps, thats something else I've put off this year too writing into the draft.
I didn't have the focus or the drive to finish the draft and its taking another turn because life is going faster then my writing ability.
I also feel like I was slowed down this year but there is no point thinking about coulda, shoulda, wouldas that don't exist.
Always at the edge of my thoughts, "Have you heard from mom?" and its been three years since she passed away.
I still think back to London and the time we had together out there.
I worry about my dad now.
Hes in his 50s and I can feel his age, hes getting older his body isn't what it used to be.
And hes always complaining about pain, "Gout in the right knee."
"Ringing in the ear."
I get the sense his mind is older too, especially when we got lost trying to find our way to a family get together in Pennsylvania.
There were a lot of personal setbacks too, a dead laptop, a lost car, a sawed guitar neck, a forgotten promise.
As far as Astral Projections go, I had a dream I was trying to get underneath a fence, the ground was desert like and I just barely fit under.
In another I was at a camp ground in autumn and I flipped a coin.
The coin came up heads and I left there in a car.
A humpback whale turning over and died.
In another my hand was broken and the bone was protruding from my fist.
As far as day dreams go I keep seeing this cobblestone like wall that has water coming down all four sides the light peaks in from the top and the water is rushing down onto the ground.
Its beautiful and its like something you'd see in Europe.
With years end and more questions then answers I don't know what to expect.
I am pretty sure it will be a year of happenings both good and bad.
But I'm looking forward instead of back.
A couple of guitars from now I should be able to sell and start making money back.
The cold chill of the wind touched my skin and I could feel my body hair get longer.
I have that weird winter feeling from it being darker earlier in the day.
As far as accomplishments go I built a guitar but it isn't a perfect build in fact it looks sloppy.
Yeah it plays, it works but who leaves gaps on the ribs like that?
A pro wouldn't thats for sure I need a lot more experience building and especially repairing if I'm going to call myself a true Luthier.
Yoga has kept me grounded and fit but I'm still putting on weight despite actively practicing.
I need to branch out into strength training and cardio.
There were a lot of adventures and misadventures this year.
Some of those misadventures leave a really bad taste in the mouth down to the gut.
I'm still carrying thoughts of those misadventures with me.
Writing about it helps, thats something else I've put off this year too writing into the draft.
I didn't have the focus or the drive to finish the draft and its taking another turn because life is going faster then my writing ability.
I also feel like I was slowed down this year but there is no point thinking about coulda, shoulda, wouldas that don't exist.
Always at the edge of my thoughts, "Have you heard from mom?" and its been three years since she passed away.
I still think back to London and the time we had together out there.
I worry about my dad now.
Hes in his 50s and I can feel his age, hes getting older his body isn't what it used to be.
And hes always complaining about pain, "Gout in the right knee."
"Ringing in the ear."
I get the sense his mind is older too, especially when we got lost trying to find our way to a family get together in Pennsylvania.
There were a lot of personal setbacks too, a dead laptop, a lost car, a sawed guitar neck, a forgotten promise.
As far as Astral Projections go, I had a dream I was trying to get underneath a fence, the ground was desert like and I just barely fit under.
In another I was at a camp ground in autumn and I flipped a coin.
The coin came up heads and I left there in a car.
A humpback whale turning over and died.
In another my hand was broken and the bone was protruding from my fist.
As far as day dreams go I keep seeing this cobblestone like wall that has water coming down all four sides the light peaks in from the top and the water is rushing down onto the ground.
Its beautiful and its like something you'd see in Europe.
With years end and more questions then answers I don't know what to expect.
I am pretty sure it will be a year of happenings both good and bad.
But I'm looking forward instead of back.
A couple of guitars from now I should be able to sell and start making money back.
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