Delay of Game

Ahh now this was something I did not anticipate.
A global catastrophe and I am of the suspicion that this in some way has a tiny bit to do with me.
This of course has incited paranoia not just for me but for everyone.
Though this delays my ambition it might in fact at a later date inspire it.
It is back to being uncertain about the future and how far away I am in time from what I what I truly want.
I in some way was pushing to accomplish the first steps in a grand plan.
The grand plan now being stopped cold.
In the meantime I can take care of the smaller things that have been so far neglected.
This has all made me rethink my strategy.
It has also reminded me to be more patient.
Though I want to make this happen all the more quickly I'm forced to slow down.
I have no shortage of things to do I just don't want to do them.
Which should have happened before I should have made my priorities the smaller things.
Its time to build a new guitar, its time to work for something I should have been for a long time.
And I can't help her if I can't accomplish the things I need to do for myself first.
How do you define a dream?
If it something you know is it a dream then or is it something real.
Is it something you can see and hold onto.
If you can imagine it then it is possible. 
They Don't Want the Truth they want a lie to preserve their society.
Not an individual with certain freedoms that were already being taken away. 
A new revolution is brewing and fate will find you all at my doorstep. 

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