Its Been Awhile

My brother and I have been in conflict for months over the guardianship issue and now the police have had to come to the house to break up the arguing. This was typical back when my mom and dad would argue.

Now things are like that between my brother and I. 

I was evaluated and let go. 

Its rather sad to me that history repeats in this fashion.

The family issues are mounting & I expect won't be resolved ever.

We have now agreed (by my being blackmailed with guardianship threat) to sell the house.

A decision I think is so dumb because we could have taken out equity against the house if he or I needed money.

Its been a busy few months.

I've gone to a few shows now.

I finally saw Frontline Assembly at Le Poisson Rouge & even ran into Bill Leeb outside the venue.

It was great, but they did not play "Barbarians" much to my dismay. 

It was previously on another album called Artificial Soldier dubbed "Future Fail" 

I listened to Artificial Soldier for the first time about 15 years ago. 

I am glad I finally saw them it was worth it to go.

I went through red bull after red bull to stay awake.

Unfortunately merchandise was limited, there were no vinyls for sale at all. 

I missed out on asking Bill Leeb to sign my vinyl copy of Artificial Soldier (I didn't bring it with me) 

I wish I had.

I also saw Gareth Emery at Brooklyn Mirage, a show that I made 2 new friends at & had a fantastic time.

I actually danced with one of the Japanese fans they sell at Brooklyn Mirage.

I heard about Gareth from one of my riders!

I am set to see Deadmau5 at Brooklyn Mirage as well.

Above and Beyond!

Anjunadeeps

& Afterlife

All electronic music I've been listening to passionately for years.

I've been going to photography events, I went to Dopeports in Brooklyn.

& Muses in Wonderland near Rochester.

Over the last two months I've taken close to 3000 photos or more of people, places & things.

I am starting a series of the city called "Ghettopolis" which will feature the buildings of NYC & its five boroughs in almost its entirety. 

I plan on shooting at night, I just worry about being mugged having my camera stolen or stabbed/shot.

Crime runs rampant in NYC & Long Island too. 

People are becoming desperate with the current economic conditions.

This lady, clearly of wealth said to me, "Aren't the politicians great in this country?" 

I thought she was joking, she wasn't.

"Wealth is real estate." 

I sold almost ALL of my stocks to survive my current financial standing. 

The IRS is still after me & seized my tax refund. 

While I feel that the government still owes me for damages from hospitalizations.

So I must follow through with the petition with the tax court now. 

The free legal aide they provided information for & whom I contacted would not take my case.

I am as my dad would say, "On my own." 

Which is fine. 

After this last stab in the back with my brother trying to control my finances with a guardianship conservatorship I don't trust anyone anymore.

I plan on driving out to California on a road trip towards the end of summer. 

It will be expensive but I doubt I will ever get another opportunity to do this again.

Gas prices will not go down either. 

It will be an expensive trip but worth every memory.

I have not been to California this year & I wish to see my family, friends & return to Monterey to look upon Marina again. 

I have not been to Monterey since 2016 after my uncle forced the sale of my grandmother's estate.

Something that was probably illegal to do. 

People do illegal shit all the time though, it just gets overlooked or under reported.

No one cares.

I have Mercari on my shitlist only because they banned me.

Which is suspect to me as to why they banned me.

They report to me that I made bad transactions.

Thats a lie. 

All of my purchases & sales went through unless there was a specific complication where the sale or buy was cancelled.

I thought the Japanese were all about honor. Something its American counterparts at Mercari should learn to respect in regards to its business. 

I take it personally, & I think its both discriminatory against a male, & a disabled one with bipolar disorder at that. 

Not very fair & will have to be answered for by the company eventually. 

Meanwhile my friend, (former friend) has a record for petty theft & they just let her buy and sell there.

Uh huh okay Mercari you figure that one out. 

While I eventually pursue a lawsuit. 

I may eventually bow to the CEO in Japan one day but as of now that decision angers me.

I haven't completely stopped ridesharing but I've significantly slowed down. 

I haven't been driving as much because of traffic during the day. 

I do not want to drive out to NYC for 2 hours at 4 pm trying to get a stranger there. 

It just doesn't appeal to me.

Besides where do I go to the bathroom on the LIE? 

Its crazy out there with traffic & people still drive like its the quarantine. 

Or at least trying to. 

I've seen some crazy maneuvers & dumb accidents since I've started ridesharing. 

If it says the posted is 50 MPH, its 50 MPH, not 51, not 55, not 60 or 65...FUCKING 50.

Go the fucking posted speed limit!

I've had so many people try to kill me on the road that its is DANGEROUS just to be out there.

I drive at night to avoid traffic but this brings about unusual riders. 

I am still trying to make it work, I still like getting people around & travelling but the payout is much less now. 

I've been playing Diablo 2: Resurrected like crazy, way too much. 

I've slowed down on my Iaido while I still practice I don't go to the dojo as often as I should.

I need to be there more often, it is just the timing for it is bad & I don't seem to have as much energy.

I've put on weight. 

I haven't been practicing yoga as often either. 

I should be.

This is where things stand currently & I think by years end I'll be a wealthier person with more numerous problems. 

Samurai signing off.