Leaving Home Behind

The summer full of life, love, heat & expenses. I've spent more money over the summer then in recent years. I don't have an exact figure but its plus 10k spent now.

Between travel, photoshoots, hotels, & other things its been an expensive summer. 

We (that is my brother & I) are very close to a sale on the house. 

It could be a new chapter for both of us. 

Then again everything the timeline memory management system indicated was that the house would still be in the hands of my brother & I. 

As per what was indicated a certain set of events would persist that to put it loosely would get me into a bit of trouble. Financially, morally, & legalistically. However negative the initial outcome would appear to be it is the long term attention to a larger issue I've been seeking to both avoid & embrace. 

How can you believe it is in anyway possible, that time travel can work? 

Well from this man's perspective it already does work. 

It is simply waiting to be discovered that it works.

Once discovered though it will in a way open a can of worms so poisonous that everyone no matter how toxic will be desperate to eat the worms.

True Story. 

Or at the least it will be.

There are few things in the timeline I'm concerned about one of those things is my initial downfall something I've strategically avoided since 2010 & have realized for some time it is unavoidable. 

I lack self respect something a friend has noted & taken a not so subtle jab at before. 

You can't plan for everything even when you have a timeline memory management system indicating all the things you are going to do in the future.

I have become overwhelmed with work & objectives this summer. 

Something that is probably a good thing. 

Now I am not sure this house will be sold but if it does it will truly buy me more time. 

If it does not get sold I will be at wits end financially. 

I'm of the expectation that soon it will end up that way.

At wits end instead of the better side of wit. 

I'd be genuinely thrilled & surprised if the house sold. 

If it did as long as the market didn't collapse again I'd be good for sometime.

If it didn't sell well I'm pretty close to the edge again. 

Close enough that if I were to tip over that edge it would result in a minor cataclysm bordering on a disaster.

A disaster I've been expecting to experience for a long time. 

I'm almost prepared to engage plan beta in the case all my ambitions & efforts are destabilized or destroyed. 

It is a plan that is daring, dangerous, very ambitious, & seemingly innocent. 

It is really about attention seeking but it is at a risk & a price I really do not want to have to pay into.

Should I have to engage this plan like I don't want to. 

If that were the case you probably won't hear from me for awhile.

By that I mean I won't be able to post or update this blog until I'm allowed to again. 

I choose to keep it vague & mysterious because saying too much can be what breaks any plan.

My family, my brother,  do not know about this plan beta but its there waiting to be executed. 

Its a backup plan in case it all goes to shit.

Lets hope things in the next few months do not go to shit.

I'm not sure enough yet but soon I'll be leaving my childhood home behind with its sale. 

As always keepin' it square,

-Samurai 

 

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